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Today is Sheila's birthday day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA SIS!

Went to eat dian xin with family dad treat all. Celebrate sheila's birthday lo. Den after tt return home change le i den went to her house. Met my god parents and cousins plus 2 unexpected visitor! My niece Pheobe and Sheila's boyfriend Jian Hui! Later together went to North Point Seoul Garden... Reach there felt a wierd feeling... She is gonna be here tmr with her friends and i am left out... Haix.... How i wish things wun like tt... T.T


So ate dinner there den celebrate Sheila's Birthday.

Pheobe and I! What a facec -.-"



I live this life my way and i live life and juz for sake of it... Thats was my way of thinking during my younger days... Take care of my parents and get a roof over my head was jus my small dream. Little did i know you were introduced into my life... You added different colours into my life which is full of darkness... I learnt how to reali care for someone... To love someone... The joy you gave me had no boundaries i juz get happier and happier by days on your arrival to my life. But it did not go too well for us... I was a different guy in love. I was over caring... Over sensitive... But still i carried on after a few quarrels... And so i felt why not juz put a full stop to all these problems? How to put a stop to it? To change myself... To change for a girl who had slowly become my dream girl which grow fuzzy during the years... Finally i found her and soon i am losing her. This time break for us had been meaningffull for me n hope will be of some use for us... I learnt how a reali boyfriend should do. I know wat i should do and wat i should not do. It is all in my nature the old nature which You had chosen me because of... I finally understand... It had been there for me to find out. I can only promised you now, no restriction, no quarrel and juz joy and happiness. MAybe more positive things in the bonus which i missed out. These few days reali had filled every MB of my brain memory to think hard... To think of how to revert to my old self... How to do well in volleyball... How to help you get back your feeling for me. I am sure if we are together you will fall for me soon. I am juz so confident. This time is my last time to ask for your hand i am at my limit i know... Thus i shall make it my last my very last... I will give you a new breathe of life and a new joy you missed all these months... Our eleven month is coming already i hope you can giv me my very last chance to prove to you. I will make it a unforgettable relationsip for you. Injecting different colours into this clolourless relationship. I juz had so many things to share with you... Darling you juz stolen my heart away with your eyes... A love arrow had been shot by those beautiful eyes of yours... I will cherishe dyou this time that a promise i made to god and also to both of us i will make all troubles end here and in exchange for happiness...


Celia Teoi Mun Teng I love you whole heartedly...


FROM NOW ON I GONA POST BIG BIG IF NOT CELIA'S EYES WILL PAIN WHEN READING! =P


I made my decision to concentrate on fulfilling every promise i made to her... Thats the only thing i can do to prove to her. So up first is to get into the volleyball main team. Is it possible? Hard... But i shall giv it my all. Currently i am 1 foot in already and i believe if i continue to train hard and improve i will be in soon. Next was to get good results i kept my promise to passed English... So ya one completed. Theres still alot for me to fulfill i muz filfull all no matter wat... I know i hurt her alot and causing so much pain to her... Maybe daily readers will be tired of me already.. But still i gonna reali make this the last quarrel for us. This is my limit too. Its hers too. So i swear from here that i will make it the last if i am her reunited. I promise to give her a better life and a more carefree one in the future. I seriously gonna giv it everything to prove to her what i can do. I manage to conquer jealousy but still i got to admit theres some of it still i failed to conquer... My actions spoke louder and cause so much things to happen. I regretted it. So i will never do it again. Now everything falls on how i perform le... I gonna try to be myself more often and hope it can bring joy and laughters to her world. Maybe alot of people out there are saying bad things bout me i will transfer them to renergy in pushing me onward... I believe people read my blog and hav their own views. Bad or good. But still i follow my heart. This is the second time i am saying this but i am very sure this is the last. Tomorrow there will be volleyball training and i will use it to improve myself further as to complete another promise to her. I will not make empty promise again. Tomorrow hope i can cheer up a little to be myself even more... I dun wan to put on the fake attitude and smile anymore i dun wan to bluff myself anymore, i wan to live life my own way. Hope sadness wun overcome me. I dun wan to cry again. I wan to stand up. To stand up and fight for her. I wan to giv her the best and shower her with concern i wan to show her that our bad days are behind us. I reali wan to prove to this world that i Nicklaus Yip isn't someone who make empty promises. I gonna do wat guys should do. Celia i duno if you will read this. I noe u r trying to avoid me. I noe your reasons, i hate myself from making you suffering i wan to change it. I will be able to make you ten times more happy then you are now. This will not b a empty promise i can do it. I hope from here you can give me my last chance. My very last to show you. You are very dear to me, very important... I dun mind wat others say about me i juz wan to be with you... To care for you openly as your boyfriend some one who you can proudly call, "My boyfriend"... I can do it trust me. Darling... Believe in me once more i will end those meaningless quarrels and troubles and replace them with happiness and joy.

I can do it... I love you... Give me the chance...

-Determined Nick


I can only....

Watch on as they went off...
Watch on as I am left behind... Far behind....
Watch on as those beautiful pair of eye turn away frm me...
Watch on as I am slowly brought back to the startin point where everything juz changed...

Nothing hurt as much....

As tears row down your cheeks...
As your heart drift away from me...
As I am not the one sending you home...
As I am not the one eating beside you...
As your back face me leaving darkness to consume me....

How I wish....

I can change the situation....
I can show my determination....
I can show that I changed....
I am serious about it....

I cried...


My love for you is forever lie deep within my heart where the room reserve only for the special one lays... The one with a heart shaped door at the far end of the corridor... Juz for you... I will cherish this cooling period to think... May we meet again... Love you...


Day 4 ....


Wat can i do? I am juz a complete trash... I cannot think of anything tt can help out the situation, Not being able to convince her to talk to me... Not being able to prove to her i reali did change already. Many were behind me but a handful were asking me to giv up... Wat should i do?



I am seriously very depressed today i reali missed her... Why can't i b more stronger? Y can't i b more patient? I reali need to do something to change the situation. I can only blame myself for all these mess. Now i can only wait n think. I had reflect on my wrong doins... And am sure there wun b stupid questions n unecessary trouble again. This will b my las time asking for a chance cause i will put a full-stop to any troubles tt will spoil our relationship. I am ready anytime le. Celia will you talk to me?


Today went to change my phone plan to student de. Now got unlimited sms liao. Wee... A wish came true hope the rest will too. Celia Darling i miss you terribly... 4 days le...


Sad, sad, sad but i can only blame myself... Today sent Bo Hung off then went with Nicholas n all. Did not ate for whole day then kena gastric... Sian... Thnks Wei Long for treating me =) If not i duno wat will I b le! As expected she avoided me all the way n did nt chat. Thnks Jia Hui for lettting me n Celia hav a short chatting session at the airport b4. Although it din went well but i feel better after tt. Hope she will think through wat i had said. I lvoe her n her only. Hope things can goes on well. Nthing to post today.. Thnks Pei Ying too for consoling me. Reali heart broken... Cried on the way home too... I duno myself, I am getting weaker... Weaker.... I am dying... Ineed sm1 who care for me soon...


The pain... I can only blame myself about this. My stupidity for posting my feelings on blog. She is hurt... I made lots of empty promises... which i din meant it... I am hoping i can do better than this... I nvt regret loving her all these time, I am proud of it. But still regretting is still what i am feeling... regretting my every action of bringing unhappiness... Everytime i say will be the last time... I reali meant it but reali cnt change fate... I tried... Then again n again u gave me the chance. I cnt ask for another one already... Since u already made up ur mind... I hope lets wait a while to think through properly b4 making it. I promise this tim i will b more like a guy... For now a period of cool down period is reali the better solution... so i shall let u consider n rest... I reali hate myself...

I hope people outside can stop saying things lik," wa break then ok le already ar?" or anything tt say Celia is playing with me. PLZ.... is enough So ya dun mention about it to stress her up.




I n her shall hav a colling period... I need a rest... Still hope after tt i n her can stay tgt. Ya... Hope so... And this sahll b the las... Love Celia...


Reali depressed...
Reali sad...
Reali dissapointed...
Reali felt dead...

Feeling guilty...
Feeling dread...
Feeling empty...
Feeling lonely...

Thats wat i am feeling now these few days...
I reali am lost...
You r willing to spend your weekends for friends...
I am seriously feeling lost and doubtful...
I am human with feelings too...
I understand your feelings, your pain and your irritations...

I am seriously breaking down...
When will you talk to me....
I want to ask alot of things....
Pain and sadness had been part of me these few days....


I found out alot of things in the past i bottled them up...
Hope you will change or slowly letting me know...
But instead you scold me for the same thing...
I kept quiet, i admitted my mistake...
Did you?
I am still waiting for me to tell you bout it...

Still i love you...
I duno how long i can hold myself together before i breaks down...
I hope my time on Earth can b a better one...
I dun wan to waste any of it....
I wan to find a cance to reali chat things out but still failed....








Is it worse than crying 2 nites till eye swollen?
Is it worse than bearing a gastric till you giv in?
I duno...
But i hope things will change for the better...
I hope my efforts will pay off...
Hope you can finally understand my feeligns like how i understand yours....

I love you...


Wa sei today the Chemistry test reali hard lo! But manageable. Hope can get a gd result =) Then oso managed to peeked on my E.Math result gotten 29/35 nt tt gd lo =( But anw hope nxt time can do better =) To those who felt they did nt get their dream result hope nxt time they can do better n their wish will b rewarded! =)

Three womans!!!!!

Hav couple face ma?

Woah finished Math test today hiong! Found it relatively manageable nia!!!!! One question reali duno hw to proof oops! But gd thing is did all questions =) Anw up comin is Chemistry so afraid of the mole calculation cham... Percentage yield my killer! DIE! Hope can cope with it!

Anw exams out today had a warm day until when the rain comes =) Was playing soccer with Nicholas Tan who was having a bad afternoon i tink almost every1 lo! Then almost slpt during chinese lesson wat the hell am i doin?! Ha ha! Tmr mum's birthday 4got to buy present tmr muz buy liao ha ha! LAter aunt treatin gus making a surprise lunch for my mum! Hope Celia can join us =) Juz nw sent Celia hm then played a game of chinese chess for a while. The result hor.... cnt say leh so guess lo! Anw when playing the second set tt time mum called ask me go hm -.-" Sianz... So went hm lo coz gt tuition. Den ltr endure a 2hours n 3o mins of tuition tiring....

Went dinner then bac hm liao... Post to keep blog alive then ltr go revise Chemistry liao! So bye cnt stay long lo!


Oh Sunday n tmr exams starting lo! Reali duno wat to revise leh haiyo cham... Today bought a fish lo nthing much ba he he! Then after breakfast returned hm slack le. While i cm out frm bathing saw dwn stair gt a car stuck! The driver reversed too much then kena stuck! LOL! The driver is an Indian woman btw. LOL! LOUSY DRIVER!

Trapped muahahhaha! ( sadistic)

Ltr went oto grand pa's house saw Emily on the way there n pretended duno anything ( Smthing impt) =P So continue walking he he he! She looked angry n reali tot i forgot! LOL! Ltr went to Grand Pa's house ( Anw by the time i reached missed total of 6 sms frm her!) Sry la was playing game la ha ha ha! Ok so i sms-ed her on reaching.....

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY SISTER!!!!!!

PS: sHE WANTED ME TO TYPE OUT BIG BIG DE!

Sad got exam so cnt celebrate for her yet... Anw after exam WE WILL! He he.... So many people's birthday cming le! Hee hee! Busy week term test here to haix..... JIA YOU! Hope every1 best wishes for their upcomin exams! =) Continue to keep my blog alive by tagging! Thnks!

Phew bad frm trng n dinner lol! Traiing till 5.30pm played few matches finally play at my usual standard or my expected performance =) Did my job well done yey! But still cnt win any game for the team leh duno y? Anw did sm gym then end training le.

Today woke up early in the morning at 7am then gt change then went to meet Celia le. Wow 10 month liao reali cnt believe it! Anw ltr went sch together to sch for oral test. Wa so nervous lo! Hee hee! After the oral we went to ate mac breakfast. While eating, unexpectantly met Celia's aunt! Was lik omg! Left her n her aunt ltr coz scare she gang ga ha ha ha! Anw went hm gt change then went to meet the vb gang le. Tgt went to trng lo ate first of course. After trng went to aunt's house hav seam boat dinner ate alot can?! Lol damn full! My stomach flood with white clams! Hee hee!

Sms Celia lo after dinner then she watching the show " Silent Hill" on TV ha ha ha!c Went hm then my turn to watch but start half way nia. Then was lik find the show nt tt interesting lo. Wat to do? Ha ha! After show called her she tired went to bed lo. So use computer le. Chiong through the nite lo!!!! Nw is already 10 months n 1 day le so we nw in the 2 digits lo! Great achievement =) Hope can continue onwards! =)


WOO HOO!

Today is the 15th!!!!!


OUR 10TH MONTH!!!!!!!


Many things n obstacles had been conquer in the past till nw, Darling i am gald u been there for me to fill this empty vessel of mine with love n care plus of course concern! You brighten my day my life! Without u i reali duno hw i am living nw. You r my most precious gift frm god. I will cherish u. Hope frm today no more troubles will occur again! I will try to giv u the best as possible n let u enjoy this healthy relationship together ok? Today mark our 10th month already! Relai a long long time liao!


是你帮我找到我的另一个天堂... 找到了我永久想要的幸福! Darling 我爱你! *MUAK*


Yesterday:

Ok reviving my blog lo! k these past few days had been exciting ha ha ha! XD Ltr goin to meet Yu Hong buy present then go trng le.

After sch was with a group of frenz ha ha! In class pei Celia b4 she went for her npcc lo! Then began pklaying with friends.




Chang shun avoiding the camera! HUM JI! Ha ha ha! Then tt finger is yon jun's! Ha ha ha!

Took our most latest picture =) Darling I LOVE YOU! 4EVER!

Today had Humance term test. Wrote alot hope all all the poitns needed hee hee. Social studies cnt finish in time sia... T.T Hope it wun affect much to the overall result T.T Anw still complete ba but nt fully leh. Ltr had NYAA so glad i managed to score a point =) Once in a blue moon lo! No confidence to shoot everytime de hee hee =P Thnks to woever tt passed me the ball at the right place n time ha ha ha XD



Ltr sent Celia hm on bike. Bought her dinner 1st at North Point. Ltr watch her eat her dinner pei her for a while b4 goin hm. Then went 4 dinner with family. During dinner my parents saw this familiar guy but nt sure whether is tt guy so they took a picture of him secretly!!!! LOL! Then ltr send to a auntie ask whether is he the guy ha ha! In the end cnt send coz phone prob so did nt ask le. Sms Celia all the way was lik chatting no end ha ha ha! Tmr passing her home-made chest nut drink by my mum ha ha ha! cnt w8 for tmr lo! Wakao! Gt chinese term test!!! Nw den noe!!!! Celia sms me a envouraging msg! i am over the moon nw!!!! LOL! K off to bed lo bye peeps!


AAAWWWEEEE man.... Tmr sch start le... -.-" Lik nt enough leh hee hee. Gt term test on wednesday omg... humance!!! So worried lo duno hw to write the answer leh!!! Cham...




Anw today went for family picnic with relatives. At pasir Ris. Had a great time played soccer, Beach de n normal. Ha ha played on the sand reali make the foot hurt sia! Anw played n won all matche hee hee! Uncle wakao pro sia! ( He play every weekend de btw... -.-") Kick till so strong my wrist hurt sia! Bro played lik amatuer! Lionel cousin was like a statue lo did nthing!!! Plus hor 4 to 2 unfair!!!! But still won on penalty hee hee!





Ate alot over there so many things to eat! Yummy! The curry surprisingly nt tt spicy =) Still gt chicken wings blah blah. We oso went to dig for oysters. Was lik banging every shell sticking on the wall of the break water. Then ltr dig the content out of the shells hee hee!



Tts sum up my day. Tiring! Gt rashes at the back of my neck leh! Tink coz of the sand abit warm too tink tempreture quite high. Always lik tt when contack wit sand wat is wrong?! Ha ha! Anw tmr sch gotta slp early! Ha ha! W8-ing 4 Celia's call currently hope it will cm! Coz she may b too tired n fall aslp ha ha! Or smtimes 4gotten de! =P Oops lik toking bad bout her! Tts the fact ma! Oops! RUN!


Yawn... Woke up at 9am plus lol surprising so early wake up leh! Did sm homeworks lo. Math paper ba duno wat to revise leh. Florence sms-ed me. Haiyo sad case. Hope she is ok nw =) Felt sry cnt do anything limited sms =(

Anw ltr bro return hm frm outing then dad brought us out for lunch then went to sm where near the stadium watch the fireworks ltr at nite. Then was surprised by so many things! 1st three fighter jet flew past us overhead! KAO! SO DAMN FREAKING LOUD! Was playing my psp then FIFA 09 ( soccer game) Then had to cover my ear then let in a goal -.-" but manage to get a glimpsed of the jet. Wa COOL SIA! Anw 2nd thing is tt my mum was smacked on the butt by a kid ha haha! The kid's mother was lik 0.o" Then my mum was WAT THE HELL! But nvm coz a small kid ma girl too so she dun mind ha haha! Anw watch the fire works but was disappointed the duration so SHORT! KAO! Few minutes nia lo! Every1 was lik "Budget la!" ha ha XD Took sm pictures below...

Helicopter flying past with the National flag