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Hw i wish i can reverse time...
Hw i wish we can return to wat we are during the December holidays...
Everything was so happy then, We totally enjoyed each other's company...
It was my best holiday ever reali...

Nthing can change the fact tt i finally fall in love with another girl,
Another better girl, I was over the moon.
I believe tt the future is bright for us yes it did.

Until sch reopen, Many problems came...
U change...
I too change...
Tts the problem
I hope we can return to normal

Hope we can care for each other again, which we failed to do so nw.
U ask me y everytime mus we quarrel
I believe it is becoz we did nt show the the care n concern for each other ,
we did nt cherish each other.
The trust isn't there...
Guess nthing can change everything nw ler ba ha ha...
Let nature takes its course?
Hope a miracle may happen... I am waiting for it...

U say everytime see me will feel irritated while when u see others u wun,
I can only say tt we are nt getting close enough.
Dun u think so too?
We seldom tok much lik last time ler,

After sch u wan slp, so no time at all.... Ya tired I hav nthing to say...
U say being too close will cause alot of problems,
but when we are close during the holidays there isn't so much problems like wat we are experiencing nw when we are moving apart...

Guess i juz hav to wait then.
I wan to turn back the pendulum,
Plz anyone out there can help me?

I am reali glad u r trying to tok to cope with me
Hope one day we can finally succeed
No we can succeed i believe so juz try to let us be close again?
I ask nthing more.

U r a excellent girl,
I hope u can grant me the wish to spend more time with me,
Notice my care for u,
I love u...



Anw today had lunch at Macdonald with Kenny, Nicholas n Celia. Fun time eating n joking ha ha! So fun so happy but as expected after tt things had to revert to cooling period. Send Celia hm n sms her after tt. She had no mood to tok. Ya cooling period ba, guess i takes things too rush. Thnks n sry, i salute u for being so brave when facing me... at nite sms u again, same thing. Guess tmr then. Anw this is normal for cooling period ba. Tok with Emelia on msn share different things tgt thnks for listening ar! Hehe! CAN DE! LOL! Finally peace ler can slp lo! Hope tmr things will work out better ba... I dun wan to bow dwn to fate again. Bye.

I ask nthing more than juz an sms frm u of ur care n concern... I reali hope to recieve it without i telling u... Guess this is my punishment ba... I am a failed boyfriend reali... A guy whose girlfriend who treat others in a much more better mood than u... I failed, plz sm one teach me a solution plz? I wan to b knowledge i wan the love frm her again.... I am desperate.... Anyone? I hate myself... She lend him her phone i dun get the chance at all n he is only a friend I? I failed.... Help me... Plz...





Woke up in the morning start the day with homeworks! Nt planning to go tuition at first, but ltr change mind when Celia say she is goin so chiong all the way there lol siao?! Anw reach on time den she will b late ha ha. So wait n wait did hw n wait..... Finally came lol! 30minutes late! pro! Slack the whole lesson coz realy nthing to do haha. Thnks for the bread ar Celia! Ha ha the tastiest bread! Hehe!

Den she say today her last day of tuition was shocked! Lol! Duno happy or sad ha ha... anw quite sad case ler lor haix... nvm. Had 4 hours of tuition with her, hope isn't her last leh. T.T After tuition send her hm. Tok on the way hehe so memoriable... Thnks for everything ar. =)

Went straight hm after tt, did hw then used com till 8pm? Ltr went for dinner till 9.30 pm. So Full! Ate 2 ppl's serving siao! Ha ha bloated!Went hm start com again. Mid year cming lo wat to revise? Ha ha Haiyo.....

Nvm rest for nw tmr revise lo. Ha ha =P Wait for her reply nw... Waiting...

Guess go play game first ba bb!


Sch ended early today! =)
Today was quite enjoyable ba.
Great things happen hav a nice chatting session with my Celia toking bout the past ba. Coughing all the way with Jun Kiat too lol! Poor Old Chang Shun oso sick ha ha we are the three sickkooz! Sad case to Celia had to accompany us haha! Anw Had volleyball ltr so send Celia n Chang Shun to the interchange b4 moving back to sch with Jun Kiat who ltr go hm ha ha lol! Went sch shocked to see nt much attended the trng -.-"
Anw train till 4pm. Was lik finally.... Then met up with Ruilin with Yu Hong , Cai Jing pang sei sia! Ok tok wit Ruilin n Yu Hong lor. Wa Eugenie scary.... -.-"

Sry Ah Girl... I juz did nt had tt courage to meet u haix... Y lik tt?

So tok till quite long then went to BK tok again. Did abit of hw n revision too hor! Cope most of Yu Hong's fries hehe! Thnks ar! Then tok n tok again! Ltr jiu go hm ler. Sat same bus with Ruilin coz live near each other, Yu Hong pang sei go play liao haiyo -.-"

Tok on the bus with Ruilin bout smthing, DUN CRY! LOL! Almost cried scare me! Pheww.. Stop half way kena scolded by the bus uncle haha XD
Then walk hm tgt tok n tok about the same subject. DUN GIV UP LA! Walk to her house ler then she wan buy drink, accompany her, then walk back ha ha sweat lik hell lol! Fun toking with u ha ha!

Reach hm juz nice my Sleeping Beauty juz woke up tok through sms then! LOL! Then her sis return hm muz go dinner then no reply ler. Alonew at hm so sian... Mum at JB dad n bro nt hm lol! Slack n revise.

Finally can go for dinner when Dad n Bro return. Ate a sumptious dinner for 4! (3 of us present only btw!) So FULL! Sms Celia again then prepare to watch show ler.

After show at 10pm finally my mum return lol! Wa bought alot of things ha ha! =) Then online ler. Nw toking to Ruilin who is keeping herself awake to read my post ha ha! PSPS! Tmr got to go tuition myself... sian... Celia go cca nvm, Cheer her on then ha ha! =)

To the doctor, i duno who u r lol? Girls likes our words? I dun think so my few encounter shown tt words bring the opposite. Girls prefer u to show out, to do it then to juz say it, Actions speaks louder than words btw! Looks lik u noe nuts bout relationship. So ya juz "F" off for ur own good. I admit i make her suffer but i wun again. I hav the courage to brave my mistake u hav the courage to put ur real name? Doctor as ur future job? Lol! I hope u r nt my doctor...! =)

BYE! Thnks for keeping the tag box alive! TAG MORE!


I ... I am a failure ba... T.T Sry Emelia i let u dwn i did nt did my best i did nt control myself i let ur sis dwn... I try harder if gt another chance ba, juz tt nw i hav no rights to ask for one ler... Damn this sickness ba... Retribution... She is too gd for me ler. It is my bonus to hav her ba. Nthing more to ask...

Thnks ppl for being there to cheer me up ar! Yon Jun n Nicholas especially! Ha ha! Nicholas so emotional!

K post more nxt time bb!


Made a decision. This is my fated decision, I will anounce here tt i will b faithful to Celia only. To all those who read this post, hope u all will b able to read through. The reason y i love Celia? She is unique tts y.

To all it was my fault to make her angry... to make her sad n disappointed. The first problem came when i did nt gave her freedom, tts bad of me huh? Yup i agree i am too selfish. I dare to say tt she is one of the girls tt is close to perfect. About those bad things i once said bout her... guess i failed to post out wat i felt after tt.

Actually all this "problems" all these bad things all link up to me. Stubborn me huh? Sick alrdy still think too much? Ya agree i think this serve as a retribution ba. I kept wondering... Suck a nice girl yet i said so much things bout her. Yes i am at fault. So hope everyone can stop saying things bout her. This post reali gt nthing to do with her, she duno bout it. Guess i am reali too much.

Hope ppl out there can stop saying " Celia using nicklaus" Actually is the other way round... Thinking bad i shldn't stop her frm meeting her friends... Shldn't hav limit her to only being with me. I am reali at fault for all this.

Imagine ur bf always disturbing u forcing u? Ya irritating rite? I am tt example... I am tt irritating yet my dear gf reng all, Yes tts Celia. She is able to take it to herself but i continuosly bring more pressure to her. I am an animal rite? I agree too i hate it too, Thnks Celia for always being there. So ya i am the bad guy here. Hope u all can help change me. I would lik to change. Any one care to scold me are welcm juz hope it can my this bad attitude.

Reali hope to b able to change for Celia... Ok count it inexperience. I hope can change reali..

I am the source of problem i honestly tell u all that, i admit it. I hate it when ppl say Celia make used of me, i muz admit i am the 1 actually. Hope u all buddies can stop blaming her coz i am the one. Every quarrel every misunderstanding all link to me. I am the bastard ba. Ya i hate it too who wan to? Guess i am born lik tt. Hope u all can help me to change it, i wan to b able to make her happy.

Main thing is i am sure i am nt kade use of, everything i does for her are whole heartedly. Willingly, nt ordered. So hope all of u can hav a kind understanding. To those who say she is making use of me hope u all can think carefully, she is juz a girl hope u all can clarify b4 saying such hurting things.

Haix... 38.6 degrees... guess maybe becoz of tt i am able to think through ba. Glad i din go sch, finally i sort out all the problems. Draw a mind map... U will find the core, i am the core, find the victim, my Celia. So hope i can gain sm help. I dun wan her to suffer or angry again. Tts nt wat it shld b rite? Hope i can recieve help =)

Oso i am nt the gd guy which i am potrayed... So dun think too highly of me, i am a slum. Ya a slum. If beatings help in sm way, Plz do so i reali wanne change.

Reali....


Oh my OH my Yu Hong u pro! Hope all goes well ba! Urm... Juz cherish?
Jealous ba? haix... U hor...

Fever return again... 38.6 degrees this time. Recieve 2 days m.c shld i go sch tmr or shld i nt? Haiyo so stress up! K k nvm... Eat my medicine n pray ba lol!!! Everywhere seem so cold...

I wan to slp!!!! I wan to escape this hard feelings! BYE!


Oh my my blog become the place to tok bout Yu Hong n his rumoured "stead" lol! Yu Hong my mum oso say," Wa! he gt girlfriend ler ar?"I was lik... 0.o... Yu Hong u so popular nw ler leh! Ha ha ha! Ok ok, Yu Hong reali do nt lik the girl... -.-" He lik sm one more beautiful k? N tt girl quite famous. So ya tts all. Yu Hong dun kill me ar! Ha ha =P Yu Hong jia you win her ar! Dun go around flirt la ltr she jealous! I wan ur hair style! lol? Gonna cut my hair soon hehe. ( hope can ba )

Anw today kena high fever... Haix.. Maybe due to the sun ba? *cough* lol!
38.4 degrees~! Lol break my all around record!!! Ha ha! =P Cnt even open my eyes... So tired... So afraid my head will burst lor ha ha! Lucky nw recover alot alrdy... -.-" So scary ha ha! Haiyo nw so many hws cming ler... -.-"

CHIONG!


Ok ok hw to start? Bad day at sch ok... end. Dun wan tok bout it. When for surprise trng Pt all the way... -.-" Nvm end there nthing to say too. Send Celia hm ltr muahahah! Finally smthing to tok hehe! Ok had a nice chatting session, bad past gone. So both of us were tired tts all. hehe! Went hm use cpu for a while, did hw hehe. Then Sheila cousin treat whole family to Sakura! WEEE! So hungry ler la! Yummy!

Ok i grab every food in sight lor ha ha, but wait damn long for ordered food ha ha my mum so pissed off lor ha ha!

"When the food cming? ...." Ha ha my mum acting cute lol! =P




Wat to say... Today nthing happen =)

Sch day ma so nthing ha ha. Anw went dinner with family, go to bus stop saw Yu Hong n.... Oops! My mum was lik.."Ar! His girlfriend ar?" Lol! Guess no one will noe the truth ha ha! Yu Hong ur secret is safe with me muahahaha! Yu Hong! Jing Rong oso cal me to ask... hw ar? =P

Yey! Tmr flexi phew... slp longer lo! Wat to do nw... so many home works... -.-"


HAPPY BIRTH DAY CELIA~!

Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to Celia,
Happy birthday to u!

15 years old lo. Sad i cnt b able to b there in person to congratulate u.. Nvm. Hope u enjoy ur day today ba. Ytd was reali horrible, hope can forget it. Anw u r one year older ler guess u r more mature than me ler, hope u can see the things around u clearly who are ur friends n who aren't. No one can judge u it is all up to u, independent ler, no one can help u only urself. Hope u like my early birthday present to u although is small hope u can feel the effort i put it! =P
Time pass quickly, today also mark the day we first meet, our 1 year ler. 3 days time will b our 6th month ler hope everything will go well frm there. Hope u enjoy the rest of today with high spirits ba! =) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!






























Can sm one out there help me? I am lost. Wat shld i do? Help me!


Haix... Guess i can only let out my feelings here ba. Yes tgt i am happy. But the way u treat me makes me wonder if i reali shld go through all tis to win u bac. Yes b4 tt i had no regrets but it is juz the attitude there. U will show this wierd symtoms occassionally... Hw can i cope with it? Ur birthday is today, i send u a sms. Ok u did reply say thnk u, i appreciate it. Ltr ask if i can call u personally to congratz u, u avoid. Wat the hell? Waited till 1am to call u, yet... fine u r tired... Wat about me? Say u will sms me after npcc, did u? Ok u 4got, i understand. But i wonder, if another guy wanted to call u will u agree? I gt a feeling u will answer. Reason? U can lend other ur hp, but nt to me when we r tgt. Ok cnt compare, cancel out, think bac u dun reali treat me tt impt, u did nt cherish me. Haix... guess reali cnt 勉强? Ur character is lik tt ba. I hope i can get use to it but is reali hard, i wonder if i can hold out tt long.... R u reali wanted to patch with me due to sympathy or u reali wan to love me again? I duno.... for once u r gd i love it, the nxt u r... 360 degree diff... Wat the hell... Guess i am nt the guy.... hope ltr i can forgot all this.... I hate the Celia juz nw... But still another part of me tell me to wait n see. Guess time ba. Hope u wun treat me as a trash ler. Haix... doing things for a guy u met for 4 months which i who meet u for 1 year did nt get the chance b4... Scolding ur friend for 3 years for the guy for 4 months. Wats is wrong with u?... Wake up... wake up... dun fall any deeper...


Today at tuition so boring... Haix sad u did nt cm... So bored. Y nt try again? So fast quit ler. Ok anw during math class kept di siao hui min till she angry! =P Chang Shun idea lor ha ha! So funny! Wa lucky he gt sweets ha ha kept eating n eating ha ha! So slack.... Short of u reali sucks haha!

The whole class so restless de haiyo... Behind me the three girls very noisy leh ha ha!




Wa din expect all of u to rmb ha ha! So touched sia! Reach sch Emily the 1st one pass me the card, then Yon Jun pass my the chocolate which he n Wei Long bought for me ha ha! So so so so gan dong! Haix... still go run away frm Emily ha ha! Anw my second gift came b4 recess when Eugenie came to my class n gave me her gift! Phew she nt angry with me ha ha XD

Anw Ltr Yun Ting came along n gave me 2 red eggs!!! LOL! Yummy! muahaha! JK too bad nt for u ha ha! Then a A4 picture of she n i ha ha so touching! Wa nxt was surprising lor! Emelia gave me my dream pencil case! Hahaha! Use it immediately man! =))))) Celia jealous a nt? Muahahah! Bigger n taller than urs ha ha! Luckily Thnks to u (Celia) hor? If nt no pencil case ler ha ha! Ok all did nt stop there! REcess kena beat up BIRTHDAY BASH! 0.o Ok tot everything over then came Ravindran n Haziq body slam! I think lose 1 kg ler haha! =P Squeeze out the fats ler ha ha! Ltr Cai Jing pass me the present he n Chang share! DUn cry ler la Chang Shun i am sry for saboing u larx... Cheers!

Met mrs lee ='( As always the mother love radiating out frm her ha ha! My grand mother! ='(

Anw the BIRTHDAY BASH did nt end there! Luch they oso cm! After sch they oso cm! Wakao! Each time more hiong lor! Recess ok, lunch sit on me, after sch...... THEY STRIP ME!!!!!!! WAKAO!!!!!!! LITERALLY STRIP!!!!!!!! PLZ DELETE TT VIDEO! anw quite fun la ha ha! Run here n there! Lucky ms chin din see me ha ha! =P Wa reali a memoriable Birthday thnks u lots for making me rmb this day =)

Thnks Celia for sparing itme iwth me after sch ok? Wa ur cup reali cute lor ah ha! The STRAWBERRY key chain so cute! Sure make Emily jealous de lor! Haha! Thnk u Darling! Had a gd tok rite? Wa lucky ur father din ask u anything tt time haha! Thnk u for making this my most memoriable Birthday Celebration =')

Thnks all ar! Too many ler ps scare miss out sm. hehe!

Presents i recieved!



Finally... back.... Patch.... Phew..... My wish came true again! OMG..... Thnks for this last chance. I will cherish it de. Hope frm today, our relationship slowly improve again ok? I will convince u tt u made the right choice de! TMr the day u make ur decision rite? Ha ha officially make it tmr hao ma? Ha ha then will b my greatest birthday present ler! LOL! Luckily i make my decision rite... Hope this path i had chosen works. =) Dun worry Nicholas n other buddies! I will nt forget u all de i choose the in between ok? I wun choose zha bo only hor! I will oso pei u all de! Juz dun diu wo yi bian can ler! Ha ha! Guess I shld b careful of my every actions ler ba? Ha ha!

Grr... No more smile ler! Grr... Ha ha! Our 1st fierce looking photo! Ha ha! =P



Hope i can successfully pas the present to u! Ha ha Take Care People! Thnks for all ur concern! i ok ler! =)

Today emo during math lesson haix... SIAO ler ba? Anw finish hw lor. Tok to her ler, finally so happy. Thus did well in trng =) Did well in free spike woo hoo! But drop when in game. Guess anxious ba? So listen to gor gor hong zhuo's advice finally able to cope! =) Thnks! Wa so happy sia!!! SAd, cnt tell this to her... U ok? Still angry? 2 more days to ur answer ler, 2 more days to my birthday... Hope it will be a positive reply frm u. Hope so.... Plz.....

Ok sad things out! Sean here spinning his way out of stress~! ha ha! gt second video ler guess to obscene ler so nope =) Ha ha! So funny sia the gang! LOve the team!!!!!!! NITEZ!

I shall choose the dim road for nw. Wilson sry i made this decision. Guess the dark road too risky ler, sry.

Thnks guys for being there for me. Sharing different views on this relationship, ya... thnks. Edward i noe ui understand the pain i am feeling ba? Same fate as u last time rite? Guess life ba... Ya sad i am, to lose sm one dear to u without expecting it reali felt like an arrow piercing through the heart... I wanted to die wanted to giv up on myself alot of times, i juz had no face to face the world. But after having all of u here supporting me i felt a surge of confidence running in me ler. Thnks alot. I appreciate it.
Chang n WEi Long



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I delicate there 1oo "sorry" to...

#1 Emily: I am sorry for nt being able to help u when u r in trouble n instead u helping me. I am so touched, thnks alot Sis! T.T U r 4ever my best sister! BEST GANN! Take care n dun cry alrdy, i cooled dwn ler, nw waiting for the faithful day to cm. U can look for me when u r troubled ok? We go smwhere tok things out ok?

#2 Celia: I am sry to hurt u for so long alrdy... I deeply regretted wat i had done to hurt u, i am sry to cause u so much distress. Guess things aren't goin out right for us huh? Thinking back we had so much fun time tgt dun u rmb? These small obstacles can b cleared easily de, we mus endure it tgt n nt giving up! I am sry i am nt gd enough to take care of u n oso apologise for being so stubborn... I am sry...

#3 Yu Hong: I am sry to always ask for ur help n i think i did bother u sm wat, hope u reali can dun mind ok? Thnks anw for being there for me ar! Best Teammate! Sorry to always pull u aside to tok... Thnks for all ur help, 麻烦你了...

#4 Eugenie: Sry Ah Girl for nt listening to ur advise... Ah Boy reali am confident in getting her back i will try to win her back no matter wat happens. I am sry to defy ur suggestion.. I noe wat u meant but juz tt i reali 放不下...

#5 Cai Jing: Sry for nt listening to u, for breaking my promise.. I am sry... I will nt do it again coz there wun b quarrels again in the future ler. I appreciate ur help thnks alot there. Hope u like the present i n Chang prepared for u, Sry for nt being able to pass it to u personally...

#6 Yun Ting: Sry to u for urm... arguing with u tt day ar. Can see u angry ler, i am sry, guess i was nt in gd mood then i am sry. Thnks for all the help u given to me i appreciate them all! =)

#7 Nicholas: So sry for keep calling u ar... I noe u damn pek chek with me ler i apologise to u ok? If u wan kill me plz do cause i owe u 1. Need any help tell me n i will try my best. Thnks for sharing ideas n suggestions. So sry for causing u so much trouble... Sry...

#8 Chang Shun: Sry for being so rash tt day... I noe 你是为我好 i understand ur intention, but reali sry i did it. So sry to cause u to join me in the wild goose chase, sry tt i forgotten u had breathing n leg difficulthies... I wun neglect u again. I promise!

#9 Emelia: So sry to keep goin to u to look for Celia, guess u r the only 1 i can look for during the period. So sry... so sry... U shld b very angry ba? Hope u can reali accept my apology... I owe u 1 another bicycle ride? Or ...? U state wat u wan. I try my best. So sry.... I will cherish the last chance if i get to attain it.

#10 Dad n Mum: Sry Mum n Dad i failed to win her back today... I will try harder nxt time. Thnks mummy for ur support n daddy too... Sorry I really am useless... So sry i could nt accompany u all go pay respect to grand pa's grave, sry i blown the chance. I will try the second time. I will.


So wat havin tuition today... I am a unknown a plague to u. Finally when we are ok, it happen again...

So close yet so far...

Ok i too much i too fan but can it b help? Normal tok to u oso hard alrdy... So stressed up so pissed. But still i cool dwn after seeing ur face. Ltr switch class tot all was well then came unexpected problem, sry for wat i did, but is there reali a need to show me the killing face... Nvm i understand, u wan face. Tts ur personality ba. Ok understand. I am nt fit ba... Haix...

Ok ur answer this thursday rite? I will wait. Hope u can giv me a great birthday present. I looking forward to it. Din expect the date to b on my birthday.... Hope it will all goes well ba.



Let time take me away to smwhere where i can finally find peace...
Take me to a place where i can fall to a deep slumber n nt being to awake,
Let me escape this world of sadness.
Let me free of this darkness world i am living in, wheres the stairs to peace?
Take me there...
Dead...

Fine say for all i care yes i am the culprit,
Yes i am the source.
Say for all i care,
I am tired, very tired...
Good bye...

Two roads... Which?
The end...?


I waited n waited till i doze off... I pinched myself awake hope to b able to answer ur call. I am still waiting... it has been 2 hours n 45 mins.... I will wait till u call.... Hope my body wun giv up on me. Yes i am thinking too much, but i reali am trying... Live without her is a torture. I noe i can live without her but juz tt my life wun b tt enjoyable ler, i dun wan to b the sec 2 Nicklaus who emo everyday... I wan to juz take a time machine n turn back the pendulum to november 2008.... This few days was reali bad...

1st day: I spend the whole day gazing into space after returning hm, i could only stare at ur msg which u sent to me. I was confuse, " Wat the... this cnt b true..." My mind was only u... Crazy ba, but juz tts hw i miss u. Hw can u leave me behind n walk with him? N ltr ignore my existant completely? Ok i was wrong to folo u then but i juz needed 5 mins of ur time... Ok nvm i noe i stressed u... I wanted to juz stop breathing then.

2nd day: Sch as per normal we did nt tok to each other. Hurts, but i kept looking at u frm time to time. U tok to him happily as if nthing happen, i am impressed. I salute u. Fine i tried my best too to look normal. But inside me consist of several needles stabbing into my heart. Still i controlled my emotion. Then it came, u told the rest tt u giving up. Ok i was numb, totally hit hard, smack to the face. I reali cnt control then... too disappointed... I felt dead. I can imagine him smilling. I lost. Ok i was glad to b able to vend my anger ltr. MEt my mum, had a toking session. I was enlighten by her, I folo her order to look for u at sch, u wasn't there. I ran to ur hm, call u no answer. Went back to sch again, was comfirm u wasn't there. Went back to ur hm again still i am freeted by slience... My mind went berserk. Went for training, 1st time i cried to nanyang.... Did as much physical training as i can trying to stress myself to the limit... failed... Thnks Ruilin n Chuan Wan for calling... I was nt in mood then. Ya finally i get to tok on the phone with u. I was relieved u answer n we tok. Great, at least sm reassurance. Finally able to slp well...

3rd day: Woke up to see tears in my eyes, i wonder if i had cried? Reason? Went for ptr, Sms u in the morning, no reply... Breakfast maybe? Waited till ptr session over. No reply... Y? Quarrelled with Yun Ting ba? Scolded by her for treating u badly.... makes me wonder... Did i? Nvm...nxt was the 2nd time i cried to trng... Must reali thnks yu hong for nt telling any1.had a terrible game there. Juz cnt focus... Hav PT after tt. Then go hm. Toking to Ferdinand nw, Finally u called! So happy. My parents support me all the way, glad... Anw i n her nt officially break ba... Gt chance then. I will grab tt chance.

I folo wat my heart tells me, yes i am doin the impossible butnthing is impossible to me when i am fully focus on smthing.

I can do it!


Haix... i cnt forgive myself... i cnt believe myself...
I blown every chance given i sux....
ok i shall list the things tt happen today...

1st: Cried on the bus
Duno wat got into me... reali... Juz becoz she din reply which i expected, i cried... Wat the hell.... ok this is the second time alrdy wats wrong with me? Thnks Yu Hong for nt telling any1 about it. Reali could nt control myself. Juz so wierd... So un-me. Thnks Yu Hong for toking to me ba, juz nt in mood =(

2nd:Played badly during trng
Juz could nt understand wat went wrong... Totally insane! So fedup so fustrated so pissed off! I blown every opportunity given to me... Damn..... Yes, Ah Girl i noe i did nt concentrate i noe i am too fen xin ler totally useless... i wasted all the effort... T.T

I thought over, n finally noe y am i in this state... I need u, Celia, I need u. Yes i can live without u, but i cnt live a happy life without u! These few days my life was terror. Cried on all three days. Too emotional ba... U r the light needed to brighten this darkness world i am living in... I need u.




Thnks bros for being there for me. Hope we can enjoy a happy 2 years b4 graduating! =) I wun neglect all of u, but sm times reali nt in mood so hope u all dun mind ok?

Brothers in toilet!

I wan to escape this dark world! I wan u to return to me! I wan a second chance!!!! PLZ!





First time i cried to trng... first time i cried on bus, first time i feel so depressed so hurt. I wan to solve it soon, i believe i can, yes i can... =)

Thnks to:
Nicholas
Shermaine
Sarah
Yon Jun
Wei Long
Chang Shun
Chuan Wan
Ruilin
Qian Hui
Eugenie
Yun Ting
Cai Jing
Yu Hong
Ferdinand
Emelia

Thnks for lending my a helping hand n sm gd scolding plus sm gd pointers =)

Yu Hong dun tell any1 about the conversation ok???? plz!

First time without specs n eyes close!

See the happy memories! dun giv up on them!!!! I will nt giv up, i will folo my heart n it tells me to win u back. I will. =)

I am prepare to live a few day of darkness... Its all shldn't end here, i wun giv up. I can sense still a glimmer of hope in us. I believe can de. I wan to prove again. Yes,i burst the last chance accidentally, i noe i hav no rights to ask for another, still i wanne make this gamble to ask u for another chance. I really will assure u this will works, i will understand u better n prevent any irritation ok? I will stop trying nw n change immediately. I reali din believe having relationship nw will nt last, it is nt in my mind at all. I wanted to b with u becoz i believe theres smthing in us. We can commucate well, same interest in sports too, i dun believe we cnt communicate. Believe in me once more? Let me go against all odds again ok ma? I promise u nt to b rash, irritating n sticky... 好吗? I wan to continue being with u. Reali i am nt 辛苦 or 难受 being with u, i reali am nt! Instead i felt happy being able to do things for u! It can b said the best moment ba =) U r the only 1 in my heart, i dun believe theres is any one out there tt can match u. U r the tallest n the most beautiful tree among the trees in the forest. So i reali hope i will attain the chance n i will change for u. I will b more careful again. Dun lose hope in me ok?

Recently went to volleyball match with the seniors against Xinmin Secondary. Although they lost but they manage to make it a close fight! Picture to b posted soon com siao.

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