NICKLAUS YIP .

TAGBOX .

Woo hoo! Tempreture dropped to 35.2 degrees this morning! Mum no choice allow me go sch. Lol 38.8 degrees ytd then nw 35.2 degrees ha ha! Pro! =P

Anw today went to canteen wait for Celia to reach sch so she oso shocked i came ha ha! Then ltr attended lessons blah blah. Recess 陪 Celia do hw stomach damn hungry -.-" Nvr persuade her go eat scare she no time finish hw so ren! Ha ha! Mum say i am diet ar? LOL! Thing is dun wan Celia 担心 heehee... After sch with her for a while then go change to jersey. She left with her npcc friends to eat. Met up with Melvyn ltr tt my "gay partner"! Oops! He ate i watch coz ltr eating with mum lo so bear with it again...



Fusion- Melvyn!


After tt went for hair cut fringe cut till very short -.-" No choice then the back still long, hope teacher dun catch ha ha! =X

Ltr had photo taking session quite fun actually. Then went to meet mum n god ma. Ate le then hm with mum. Did sm Geography hw while eating breads! SHIOK! Used com for a while then read book till dinner le. Use com again n watching "KO 3an guo" ltr with bro till quite late maybe ha ha!

Tts sum up my day today ba? Ha ha!

Darling attending NDP tmr wish her all the best =) Sad case cnt b in person ha ha! Reali muz train so hard? Count my blessing nt in uniform group =P Darling, Emily Sis n others 明天加油！

Nicklaus signing off... =P




Maybe u dun mean it... But... Reali did u tot of my feelings? Maybe becoz i am sick my words are also hurting... I dun wan use it as an excuse anw, i apologise if reali i am wrong but hope u can think bout it coz i dun tink i am the only 1 at fault. I wonder if i am reali an impt guy... I shall see. Hope for the best. Tmr a short day hope can hav a gd chat tmr. Thnks for answering n replying my call n msg juz nw. Thnks most imptly for ur concern in the msg to ask me to tak care i will cherish it. Emily nt ur fault mine... Juz cnt face it. I noe u did it to help me maybe as Celia said i am wrong for saying u all were playing. I shld b the 1 apologising. Thnks all for ur concern i will recover fast n try make it to sch tmr =)

Passer-by: i reali wan to noe who r u i wanne be friends with u possible? U r?


Totally screwed today... Haix... Was sick then came up so many problems... Y? Y cnt every1 juz understand? Muz i reali die one day then u noe hw to cherish me? Muz i reali b gone then u understand the pain of losing sm one who cares for u? I duno... Sick tired weak... Nthing can compare to this. I am screwed emotionally n physically... I am tired...

"I tot u say u wan get sick then go hm?" Tts wat u said... Hurt... So u wan me to b sick then? Tink bout it...

Screwed..


BEST DAY~!
"Celia"



"I 'love' celia"



Wilson n gang own-ded every team... -.-" So ltr ride Celia hm took the basketballs then chiong to play liao ha ha! Played frm 5pm till 6.45pm. Ltr went for dinner with my mum n bro!!!! Celia was forced by me ha ha ha! Anw she willingly ma so nt my fault ha ha! Ate Macdonald mum treat all. Celia's face was damn red n was so 害羞!!! Luckily my mum started conversation so the whole dinner was ok alrdy. Ha ha had a great n exciting dinner! After dinner sent Celia hm then walk back. Saw mum n bro at NTUC so walked hm tgt. Mum say saw us hold hands while walking hm then kept laughing lol -.-"

Luckily everything went well boosting our relationship =) Hope for the best then! Juz sms-ed her long day tired le. Zzz.... Ha ha tmr another day with tests cming up! All the best then!



4EVER TOGETHER!








Nicholas Tan recover soon!


I WANT TO BE WITH YOU <3

CELIA

I

LOVE

U!

Phew... finished sm home works =)
Sms Celia in the afternoon, Great chat ha ha. Gonna get tied up by her =X
Anw ltr goin to grand pa's house ltr. Sch reopening tmr... Duno whether to look forward or not... Ha ha... Dad oversea so will b goin sch my self. Anw 1 willing to accompany me? LOL!

Alot of things had passed the last week n glad it is all gone behind. Hope the upcomin week will b a better n peaceful 1. Best if the "Air -Stewardess" can rot sm where n b absent frm sch. May my wish cm true =)

So slpy... slpt at 3.15am ytd yawn... Goin off alrdy bye people!!!

Thnks to those who read my blog daily =)

Continue to tag!!!!


Juz could nt slp... Juz could nt.... Oh my god...

Tmr trng duno whther to look forward or hope it will cm ltr....

I muz nt let my anger out!

忍


A terrible day today... Omg... Trng did so badly... No one there to comfort me lol... Where it went wrong? Nt myself.... I wonder if i am really am a unreliable guy? I need to find a solution fast... She slpt so too bad. Live the pain alone through the night.....

Handphone with Ji Wei currently coz Wilson was toking through it with Yu Hong n forgotten tt he was using my phone so brought it with him into the train. Then ltr went off. Different train frm mine btw. So was lik 0.o" Plus if he return he cnt make it back coz last trian alrdy sad case. Can only w8 till tmr alrdy.

Frm here i hope to wish Wei Long a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Hope u r more matured nw to handle sm things... ( Secret) Ya cherish everything u got =) U noe wat i mean =)

Thnk you 曹老师 for listening to my problems n givin ur opinion bout relationship. Thnks for nt opposing it =) Ya maybe u r right, I hope it will work out well.

Frm wat i see being a "Nic" isn;t a gd thing. Seeing my "brother" Nicholas Tan suffering reali make me feel bad too, unable to help instead maybe din gave a gd soluion to him, nt givin ideas... Lol... Hope can tink of smthing for him.


Am i such a weakling?


....


ALWAYS TOGETHER, 永不分离




I believe theres a solution to every problems,
I also believe we can find one to this.
Yes it happened alrdy so y nt lets hold each other's hand n face it together?

Its my fault frm the start ba,
I feel bad seeing u leading ur everyday life enduring the emotions,
I hope i can do smthing.

Dun worry by Monday we are goin to settle it together le.
I will b by ur side then no fret,
Darling u r a strong girl,
A brave one too.
So promise nt to break dwn nw k?

I promise to stay by u forever...
I lvoe u n thats the truth,
Darling it been hard on u,
Very hard...

After knowing u been....

My heart juz sank for u,
I wan to b there to comfort u,
Really....
Stay strong!

It is gonna end soon,
After tt its Seoul Garden approaching liao!

LOVE U CELIA TEOI MUN TENG... <3


Dun feel bad,
Its nt ur fault...
Its mine...

I promise u to be there for u always ok?
I will b there when u need help,
Always ready to help u.

Dun stress urself too much...
Dun think too much...
Enjoy ur everyday life is one way,
I know is hard but i believe u can.

Nobody can make the decision for u,
It is up to u.
Darling i believe u can make it de!

Juz hope tt u can tink of me when u need help.
I wil support u all the way!
Together we shall fear nthing =)

Pull urself together!
Love u always!


Thnks for all ur tags but is lik becoming a drama ha ha. I glad many friends are there helping me to voice out against urm... Cindy. Ya so lets end it there i put the song there n hope all enjoys it. Cindy i wn to ask if u ever dwn load songs illegally? I dun believe u do not ba? So dun act innocent. I duno who the hack u are but is juz pissing me off. U may b frm my sch or may be nt juz beware coz no one plays with me. I can track u dwn to ur house dun try me. One advise to u, " Watch your back"

Anw today woke up early had breakfast b4 meeting Ji Wei(Mr Bean) n Kai Yang ltr for trng. Train-ed to Bishan b4 taking the circle line to Nanyang JC. Saw Wilson(Mongolian) on the way. So tgt walk there frm the mrt station lol! Anw those nicknames were given to us by coach ha ha!

Ltr trained with Dunman Secondary n Girls frm T.N.T. After tt played match. We lost to the girl team!!!! Dunman too! OMG!!!

A quarrel start after tt between the team. Hiong lo... Until ltr gt chocolate around le then ok ha ha ha! Ltr team tok then finally settle everything. Phew... Luckily Darling is enjoying herself n nt affected by wat tt FATSO had done! So fang xin le. After trng went hm went for dinner then shop around IMM. Chat with Darling ltr on phone then manage to console her YEY! But can see she still very very upset... I feel lousy... I juz cnt do anything man... Failure...

I hope I can see her strong again. I will always b there for u Darling... Always...
CAUSE i LOVE U <3


A unresponsible form teacher u r,
Fat n ugly u r,
Always tok without looking at the person u r toking to.
Roll ur eye balls till it drops!
I CURSED!

U r just a nonentity,
IM SO FRIGHTENED BY UR MALEVOLENCE,
U SHITXFACE!!!!
I wish to CONDEMN U TO SM WHERE U CAN STARVE TO DEATH!

U r 1 bitch teacher i hav ever met!
Tink wat bring luggage can act as a air stewardess,
Sry but sry u only fit as an ASS-stewardness!

Burn in hell n b tear apart by the fallen angles!
Dun appear in ytss again le la!
Disgrace the name!

NOONE LIK U SO BE GONE BITCH!
Nw u made me hate u more so die!

I curse u all the way to my grave!

I HATE YOU!!!








Why muz u play with me...
Are u testing smthing frm me?
Why muz u arrange so many things in my way?
Is there any thing to stop it,
Or theres a reason to it?

I had enough,
She is heart broken it hurts...
So plz stop it...

Wat for playing volleyball so well when ur gf is hurt? I felt no happiness in it. Hope i can b of sm help to help her emotionally...
Is there anything i can do?

God plz...
Stop it...
Leave us in peace...
I beg u...


To Cindy:

I duno who the hell r u sm one frm the sch or my cousin? Anw i juz warn u nt to trigger my anger again. U maybe wishing me well but lets jus stop toking bout the past. I n her r doin fine, Juz recently sm problems pop up but will settle soon. About the flh song, I am finding it no link y i hav no rights to do it? Its jus a song which express my feelings. N i felt u r the on ehwo hav no rights to tok about my love for her. Hw can u define love? I tell u in many ways. So dun think things ur way...


It all ended with a happy ending huh?
The long break had ended, we united forging a stronger bond.
This time things change we went through alot,
We experience numerous bad occasions...
I will learn frm these occasions n wordk for the best,
Maybe then i can reali call myself the perfect guy for her =)

Yup i patch with her again =)
Everything went according the way i hope it would b!
No one expected for us to b able to patch,
To the extend of asking me to giv up,
Let go...
Maybe tts gd for me?
Anw i did nt regret pushing on =)
I gt my reward for this!
This time i shall thnks all those who were behind me n those who relented...
I will definitely cherish this chance even more to prove myself =)

Celia rest assure on being with me,
I shall bring the best out of myself for u =)
Let u enjoy this relationship better than ever!

Our heart beat as one n my love for u increase on every beat...
I love you a thousand times every second...
Hope my heart dun stop beating n time pass on...
My love for u shall grow on...
I will b the perfect guy for u...






Today had a day at sch, gt chosen for dun wat thingy... Then Wei Ting n I had to go the briefing then found out we were randomly chosen n are representing Singapore with another 5 sec 3s n sm other sec 4s. Call it lucky or unlucky? Anw after tt gt physics n NYAA. Played basketball. Teamed with Yu Hong n his friends won one match n lost one plus goin to win the third but no time sad case... Ha ha! Anw had fun. After tt walked celia to her hm to get basketball. Then went to basketball court to meet Chang Shun but tt guy say last minute tt he cnt go ha ha ha! So anw there a lot of ppl so with celia went to get her bike b4 riding to block 666 to play. Took a picture then went to accompany her for dinner. Ate till 7pm plus. She TREAT ME ICE CREAM! My best one ever! Ha ha! Say wat repay me for buying her drinks -.-" Anw ate n tok lo b4 sending her hm. Finally we r tgt again! Ha h aha gtg bye bye! Nightd ppl!


WEEE......


Finally... Later on today i am goin to ask her alrdy... Everything depends on it. I hope it all goes on well =) I am confident =)

So nervous ha ha... Thnks to those who supports me n asked me nt to giv up =) I appreciate them all n will try this last time =)

Had a long day.. Juz return frm night trng ..... Yawn.... So sleepy slping first alrdy gd nite ppl! ( or gd morning?) Anw sch ltr on so ya bye =)


I would lik to extend my thnks further to another two friends of mine who recently send their regards to me =) They are Emily n Yon Jun =)
On hearing wat i am goin to do they came to wish me luck. It makes me wonder y so many ppl out there is opposing my choice? Is nt lik i am killing any1... Plz trust me man... Any i promise myself to do my very best so nthing gonna stop me.

Yon Jun:
Thnk u brother.
Always sensitive to my every move huh?
Nobody notices me in class other than u!
Ur jokes nvr fail to make me laugh...
Still it failed to lift my spirit i am sry...
I noe u tried ur best to comfort me ler i will try k?
Thnks for ur support for this wednesday =)
Its cming le i am nervous...
Hope nthing goes wrong on tt day.
I noe u r in alot of pressure with lots of ppl against u n yet u juz bear on with it.
I salute u n will b by ur side helping u too =)
Wat are brothers for? Hope our friendship can last.
I understand u urself oso felt i shld juz let go n end it there,
But i tell u this...
Love can change a person's way of thinking.
I chose to go for it. U din stop me i am surprise.
Thnks alot.
Reali appreciate ur effort in trying to help me.
Maybe life is lik tt, I need mature friends like u huh?
Friends 4EVER!


Emily:
Thnks sis sry i cnt b there to comfort u. Ur continuous sms me reali touched me ha ha. Thnks alot for ur encouragement. U r the fourth to wish me luck! I will cherish this chance no fret! I will ty to cheer up no matter wat happen =) I will try to keep my promise too so no need worry. Dun feel sad for nt being able to help me much u did enough ler juz concentrate on ur studies first? Cheers too!


Today was slping till 11.20am lol! Planned to meet Ruilin jie at 10.20am lol! So was lik scare to on my phone lol... Ltr Came 2 msg frm her asking if i am awake lol! Yu Hong oso looking for me lol felt so guilty! Ltr met her at her house then start editing sm things for my surprise on wednesday. Did for a while then ate two bread as breakfast damn delicious can? Ltr help her with her hw. Actually nt reali helping her was chatting wit my belove JUNIOR LOL! ( Ruilin jie u noe who rite?) Ha ha pity tt particular junior ha ha!

Ltr went to North point meet Ruilin's *ahem* to buy things to make a complete surprise gift ha ha. They two so sweet sia... Make me jealous... T.T Ha ha! Anw after tt left for hm lo. Went to JUrong Point with family ltr for dinner n shop around bought 2 books! YES! Ltr went hm then tts all.

I reali hope frm here to thnk 2 very important people who stand by me this time closely and helping me out. ALthough both of them felt tt i shld let go but still they help n support me. MAybe it looks bad to others for them to help me but i tell u all out there tt they are true frenz as they still helped out risking their reputation. I call this two my Best Friend. They are Ruilin Jie n Yu Hong (friend for 3 years)

Ruilin Jie: Thnks for all ur help jie! I aopreciate ur help reali i swear! You spent ur "honey moon" time with *ahem* to help me. I am touched reali... Plus hav to trouble u the half day... I feel bad reali. Reali thnk u. I will try my best this time last time. I noe alot of ppl tell u u r doin the wrong thing to help me but i am grateful u still helped me in the end. I hope others can understand. U risk it for me i am so grateful. Reali grateful. Hope i wun fail u. U r the few who reali noe i love her alot n helped me, reali hard to get support when i gave a "bad" impression to almost everyone till sm came to scold me. Still u stood by me although u felt i shld let go thnks... Hope u last long with him =)

真的感激你不够，不适应为你我真得不知道该这么做。
虽然你知道陪我会有人说我们，对你不公平，但你还要陪我，关心我，安慰我。
谢谢我真得很荣幸又你这个姐姐， 这样好的姐姐。
谢谢你你的支持 =)

断弟-断姐

Yu Hong: Thnks Brother for helping me out everytime when i get into trouble regardless of during trng or relationship. Sry i cnt help u in urs... I felt lousy. Still u continue to help me these days. Even to the extend to leave the Zhen Win group to emo with me. Reali damn grateful. I duno if u read this but reali sry bout ytd to bring u into the conversation n cause u to speak in a tone u nvr used b4. Thnks for being honest too. Maybe i was wrong to bring u in still regardless u stayed n help. Thnks. I noe u had the same feeling as me too of the wednesday thing still u gave me ur support. Reali grateful. You r the best team mate n Friend i hav every met =) Hope we can b friends forever =) 3 years n still counting?

Thnks to this three people : Yu Hong, Ruilin n Yon Jun for supporting me =)

Thnks for the conversation. I learnt smthing. Everyone had their true colours! LOL! I found mine! LOL good or bad? Anw Live life my own style onward!


Woke up early in the morning had tuition at 10.30am till 12.30am. Both MR Faeez n I were lik zombies ha ha ha slp teaching? LOL.. After tt chiong to bus stop took 853 to Nanyang JC bought chickhen rice as munch. Had trng till 6pm. LTr Dad brought me hm to prepare for the bbq ltr. Grand ma came too! First time she show concern for me by asking me to tone dwn in trng! My first time seriously! Coz las time she dislike me ha ha. Omg.. But still i dun feel quite happy leh... Still hav her in my mind..Had bbq at seletar reservoir, had a fun time ba? Juz hard to smile all day. Sms her. Reply say tok tmr. End there. At least she replied... Hardly a chance she say... So means theres a slim chance available so i goin to tackle it! Hope it can b successful on that faithful day...


I huff n puff...
Still i feel t i am nt getting close...
You r still far away...

Is there anything i can do to close up the huge gap?
Anything maybe to pull us tgt again?
Better still smthing tt can cement our relationship as a couple?

Plz giv me this last chance...


我愿意爱，
我愿意付出代价。

不管是什么，
我一定会做到。

爱你是我一生中最开心的事，
爱你是我一生中难以忘记的事。

和你在一起时，
可说是在我这十五年里，
最快乐，
最美好的时光。

所以我不会放弃你，
直到死为止，
都不会后悔爱上你。

张嫚庭，
如果你肯给我这个机会，
我保证我不会让你失望的。

反而让你更开心，
相信我，
我这次不会错的。
因为我实在超喜欢你了。

永远爱着你。。。

-叶子瑄


After a day of sch i prepared myself for tough time ahead... Rushed hm change into my jersey n volleyball things, ltr rush to bus stop. Bus juz took forever to come.... Anw ltr reached interchange then Wilson n gang alrdy there waiting liao... Ps ps....

Saw Celia walking to bus stop alone. Felt guilty n disappointed nt being able to accompany her. Anw sms her instead. =)

Ltr went to Chong Pang CC to play basketball. Wow my first time actually... Nvr played lik this b4 seriously! Every1 there was almost thrice as pro as I am! Embarrassing... Anw after tt went for trng with shirt fully drenched with sweat. Enjoyed myself ba? But still the sadness came back again ltr... Miss her...

Had trng did badly... Oh my... Risking my place sia! But still manage to add 2 games to my tally. Few good recieves n tts the end. Ha ha.... Hope tmr can do better =) Went back with Brandon n Yu Hong ltr. Brandon's bag gt stuck by the MRT train!

LTr went to meet family at AMK. Coz they watching movie. But unexpectantly went to the
wrong Cinema! W8 for them to arrive to fetch me lor!

Tok to Celia on the phone till they arrive! Had a nice n pleasant chat! Finally i can say i am a happy man. Hope it can last forever. So tok till i reached hm, Family pretended nvr hear a thing lol! Tok lots n lots of things ltr! So happy! LTr tok again through msn. She nw watching show so chatting again ltr =) So excited! =)

And... Reply to tag...

An Advisor: I appreciate ur advise, maybe u r right maybe... But still if it is wrong i will still do it, coz i wun regret it. I miss her coz of the happiness she had gave me! I cnt live a HAPPY life w/o her! I appreciate ur advise but hope u can dun scold my friends who are supporting me coz they hav their rigt to do so. MAybe they r wrong but i appreciated it they gave me the confidence i needed n i am glad to call all of them my gd friend. U r too by tagging i appreciate it too but plz let ppl comment on wat they feel. I will still chase n wun forget her coz love is blind. It may b bad but i will. But i believe it is a gd thing coz i wan to continue being faithful... I love her... N Full-Stop...

Celia i love u only n tts my oath. I will nt break it unless i had to. But i believe i can giv u the happiness u wan hope u can giv me the chance. Its nt too late coz we are young. I believe we can form great couple, mark my word. Hope u can giv me the chance needed. =) I love u.... 我爱你...


不会后悔...


I reali miss everything we did together...
Everything we shared...
The happiness i felt...

I reali miss the time we ate togethr...
The laughter which sent me dazed...
The concern in ur voice when i in trouble...

We did almost everything together happily...
I missed that...

If life is gonna go on,
I rather i stay in the past forever...
With you by my side...

I tried to enjoy myself attending basketball games...
Socialise with others...
Still i am pulled back to the start when i see you...
I missed you....

Later a knife drove into my heart when...
You blocked me on msn...
Stop replying my sms...
Nt a single conversation...

I reali was overcome with sadness...

Guess it is my retribution

I owe u everything...
You are forever the cool girl i know...
The calm...
The neutral...
The pretty girl i know...

I lost you and thats my greatest regret...
I hope when the time cms...
My plan will work...
I shall wait for it to start....
The last push....

Everything for the sake of love...


Times flies... It did nt work all too well... Today had a freezing time in the i'create room having the course. Did nt enjoy myself much except for the 2 basketball game after tt! Played nt too badly ba? Won the match lol Nicholas sad case cnt shoot in any 1 jy jy! And oso the toking session with my two councillors ( Yi Jun n Florence) Lol... Kena beaten up so many times sry ar... Juz do nt hav tt mood yet still in space ba ha ha.Ltr goin to eat dinner ler post tonite again then.


Saw them...
Heart sank... Y?
Over le...
Haix...
Juz another torturous day...

Avoiding always...
Hurt....
Y?
To show me smthing?
I hope nt...

Friends are there for me...
Still i miss....
The love from u....
The time together...

FOR LOVE I DO ANYTHING...


Another day at sch... Yawn... Woke up at 7am met up with Ruilin jie go mac hav breakfast. She ate i watch. Saw Bo Hung there who ltr chiong out lol! So we discuss ler lor. Learnt lots of things on relationship... hope gt use ba.... Thnks jie anw.

Ltr went for full day course did pull ups during recess n BasketBall during lunch.

Thne went hm with chang shun.. The end.

Nt much to say n dun wan say le....


Another day at sch.... This is the first time i felt dread... I reali hope it did nt cm but still it did... We broke... Looks like nthing can stop it frm happening... I tried as best as i could goin against the flow still i muz face reality.... Y muz God play with me like this? I wun bow dwn so easily, I will win her back, I dun wan to surrender so easily. Man kind fight for their dreams i fight for my love nthing can stop me unless i reali need to do so... Hope is smthing in me striving me on. Without her reali felt empty...



I dun look forward to sch, it juz bring misery...

I lost it. I regretted it. I missed it.



Yes is gone, look forward but I juz could nt... She is my everything reali... My sunshine... I shall make one last try to ask for a patch then. Hope it all goes well... Wish me luck. I envy most couples.... Esmond u gd! I am way behind frm gd... Dread.....


To taggers: Thnks for all ur tags of encouragement. I understand wat u all mean. I consider for few days already i shal mae one last push for it. I juz cnt let go for nw... My future depends on it ba.... My happiness....

Esmond (passerby): Thnks for ur tips. Ya i will numb myself with Volleyball n studies, I planed tt too, thnks for ur tag.

Shermaine: Thnks for today n everything i was juz feeling reali dwn. I reali thnk u nt enough! U r the best! Maybe becoz u r sitting beside me ba.

Nicholas brother: Thnks u for tagging n trying to make me laugh today. I aknowledge ur effort. You hav ur own problem so no need to care bout me n gd luck in ... ya...

Emily: Everytime i gt problem u always there. Thnks u sis so much. Take care of urself first ba, no need care boutme first.

Wilson: U n ur wierd jokes, anw thnks for discussing tt topic with me, at least i found out tt volleyball boys share the same fate! Thnks for an wei-ing me during recess ba?

Hong Meng: Thnks u for being a great captain. And u were comforting me then? Thnks btw.

Jia Hui: Thnks for the lecture n sm educational tok.. -.-" I appreciated it thnks alot.

Yon Jun: Thnks for all those sweets. Reali felt better munching all the way. =)

Yu Hong: Thnks for folowing me during recess i appreciated it. Sry but gotta trouble u le ar! Hope we excel in trng then! Thnks for listening n discussing of my problems i reali will treasur our three years friendship!

Ruilin: Thnks jie for encouraging n comforting me. Thnks lo.

Cai Jing: Thnks alot. I noe is hard for u but hope u can support me. I reali can do it. Thnksa for everything =)




I hope i din miss any1 out? I shall try one last shot hope u all with me... Reali at m,y lowest point nw... Regretted and damned... I may nt b the best guy on Earth but i shall try. Hope a positive respond ba...


I still love her.....


Time Break


我爱你，
我要照顾你，
这都是，
我要在人生的道路做的事。

我爱你，
是我一生中最开心的事。。。
我永不后悔。
你可以说我们玩完了。。。
但我还是觉得，
我们还是可以的。

说我笨，
说我蠢，
但我还是不会放弃。

我相信老天爷不会这么狠，
我做过那么多事，
我不相信你没感觉了。

我爱你，
所以我还是坚持下去。。。

不会放弃。。。


Woke up early in the morning at 8.20am, went for breakfast with Family. Ltr went hm then Dad n Mum prepare hteir belongings b4 goin to the prot to take a boat to Bintan for their so called Honey Moon? Lol envy them... Watch through the window as they drove off.

Tears filled my eyes as i wonder if i n her can b lik them too...

Ltr went to meet Emily to buy cake for Jian Wei's Birthday. Wanted buy strawberry one but bought chocolate 1? Brought hm pu tinto the fridge then Emily help me on my com. Ltr went to Sheng Shong to meet Jian Wei. He wore white so hee hee safe frm our powder ha ha.Ltr brought him hm lock him in room then Emily n I prepare everything. Ltr Kicked the door n enter in with the cake, he was shocked. Ha ha... Ate the cake then ltr sprayed powder on him n then the fan did its job by spreading it all everywhere the room so my whole room nw fillied iwth powder! Gotta put a sign, "Watch out slippery floor"!

Anw ltr sent Them off then change b4 goin to grand pa's house. Played chess with Ah Gong.

WIN LOSE DRAW
Ah Gong: 3 6 2
Viclaus: 3 2 1
Nicklaus: 3 1 1


So ha ha quite fun ba. The Brothers against an Old Man sounds bad. LTr ate dinner then went hm with Uncle. Auntie gave Bro n I $20 for us to buy food tmr. So grateful =)

Anw tt sum up my day... Still my mood still failed to lift up... Y can't we juz tok through?






















































I always wanted ur tag to my blog,
It nvr came,
But little did i know...
I regretted asking for it...

Anyway...

I hope nxt time we can get another chance to be together,

Impossible but my fingers are crossed...

As for now i am glad to see so many people who stand by me...

Thnks to all...

Mummy, Emily, Yon Jun and Chuan Wan...

I shall stay strong and look forward to the forest which beckons me ahead...

I shall leave this wonderful tree which help me a great deal in life...

Yes it is harsh to break, But still i cnt thnk u enough for everything,

Without u i cannot be in the team i thnk u... Hope by breaking it is the right decision... Bye...

Nice to be with u for this 8 months and 19 days....

Hope it is a dream...

Woke up early in the morning went for breakfast. Ltr went for fishing at Kranji with dad. Fished frm 12pm i think till 5pm. In the end i caught two fish! But no happiness at all. Although it was my first time to reali catch a fish myself. (mostly my dad caught le then let me reel it in) No joy. Y?

Ltr brought the prize hm then surprise my mum with it.



Juz like the sky n the Moon.
With it as the only source of light it holds on.
I will hold on to my belief...

If break brings u joy,
I hope it does work out.

My heart had only u in my heart
I will still include ur photos into my album hope
I will nt forget bout u.

Hope u enjoy the rest of ur life then.
Bye...


Another day at sch. A long and terrible one. OMG... wat gt into me? Nt a day to describe ba. Everything juz went wrong... All my fault? The hws they dun wan hand in i kena, lol. Guess my responsibility ba but then i dun need to do meh? LOL. Stressed.... Ltr even worst de. Dun wan tok bout it. Solve and settled but ltr again. So went with Chang to Edward's house. Played Star Wars Battle Front 2 To cheer up a bit. Lost most of the games so not much use. Ltr beg chang for sm help then failed mission. At least i tried.

Walk a lonely road back... Exhausted... Confused... Distraughted... Fainting...
Ate dinner ltr then return hm with two more members to the family- 2 fish.
Nt cheered up....
Haix... Y? Y muz it cm?



Nw nw... Wat went wrong? Gotta spend another slp-less night thinking... Hate it... Am i tt lousy to bring out a smile? Sm freshness? I gotta try hard again... Nw io can only hope by buring myself deep into the fantasy of my novel can pull me out of this dark period....

At least i tried....


Thnks Emily n Chang Shun for concerning but still i cnt tell u all much so hope u both understand dun care bout me i will b fine. Nicklaus "cage" ma strong de!


Today woke up early went to sch. Did sm hws first then went to w8 for the Teois at canteen ha ha. Guess my habit le ba. Had a long day at sch then ltr slack during chinese but had to collect papers... Lol so tiring... Nw so many jobs ha ha. Today Celia seems tired so did nt dare disturb her. Ha ha maybe stressful ba. So long le the tag box lik tired hello people help keep it alive! Ha ha! I hope this post can revive its temporary death!

Sch reopen so nt much to post so reali hard to post but still the tag box muz b kept alive lol!

Tmr gt course till 2.30pm so sry guys trng cnt join le. ha ha!

Saturday goin fishing parents postpone their trip till sunday so by sunday i will b all lone with my bro at hm ha ha till monday!











8 Months n 17 days n still counting...
Sheila's 6 months n 1 day ha ha! Cousin last long!

I believe it is nt too young to b in an relationship. So i wun b affected by Mrs Tan's speech guess age shld nt b a problem as we are nvr too young to die too so y nt relationship?LOL!