NICKLAUS YIP .

TAGBOX .

Finally i am going into the military and am going to serve
my national service.
How time flew and how a pre-army break upon the end of poly could become like this.
You have found a man and i guess you are really happy with him.
Do take care and do stay well.

Both of us have found the right partner maybe in life and are moving our separate ways.
Yes though the once Jocklaus is gone but the awesome memories remains.
Thanks for that awesome wonderful 3 years and really was a pleasure to be your man at least for that 3 years.
Last long with him and live life with no regrets.
Though a pity we didn't last lets both live life to the fullest from now on. Thank you so much for your well wishes for my army and same goes to you for your future.

Hopefully everything goes well from here, Farewell.








So finally here it is.
The picture and all, i a suppose to give you 'All the best' wishes but i do not know if i could.
'Like'-ing the photo had also gave me a dash to the heart.

But i am nonetheless happy for you. You overcame the burden of going to someone's POP and to go for another's commission. How much he meant to you i guess.. Sad cause for someone you knew for that few months. I am still happy for you. All the best. I mean it..


Seeing pictures of you always never fails to give that nostalgic feeling. So now life is pretty much shaping up for me and i know yours doesnt include me anymore. A guy had obviously replaced me and it is about time i bid goodbye. I know i post the same thing many times but everytime i post, i read my posts again and yet i couldnt bear to let what we had built all these years to go down just like that. I know you had let go you had moved away. But nothing had been planned for me till now.

Pretty much confused still and lost but life goes on. You have your life now so do i. But what we had built i really do not wish to see it fall just like that. A tree that could had bear fruit.

Hate it.


So what shall i blog about?
Back to my own world again and ya.
Life had been turned upside down and is slowly flipping itself back.

So i see u now spendin late night out with the guy u share affections for and now u are sick.
He will be there for u i guess and he is the only one u want to be by your side.
My existence is wiped clean and i got to accept it real hard this time.

I dare not open any social networks because i know i couldnt take it.
Who does? Someone so important to u is now someone else's.

Take care. I wish i was there.


I don't know about you but these amount of memories really makes me miss you so much.
If you are reading this i know you will go nah it is impossible and all, maybe even annoyed.
Things had just have to turn out like this and yeah it had be reaching 4 months, yet i am still here.

No regrets because i know i am once deeply in love and had always been true, the relationship wasn't the one i let down by you and myself. I let both of us down by not fighting harder.
As much as i hate the sight of him and all, i just wish he treats you as well as i did. I just hope you are happy whenever you are.

Damn.. i miss snuggling till the next day with you, just catching up on our days.
Fighting through the exams, training and even sharing our shoulders when tears start to fall from stress. Please don't forget about us. I will miss you.





A day we always go and have fun together.
Now its a day u went with him.
How much a year could change. Funny how i still determine to wait even all these haha..

The days i endured while trying to chase u back until u told me we aint possible.
The day i ran off after u bid me goodbye.
The days i tried to show i am alright, hoping u wont feel guilty for hurting me.
The days even now seeing how u had fun with him.
The days we were together were the days i want back so much.

Counting the days now.. Slowly i know i have to go.
Damn.. Hurting so much.
To think i am still keeping faith and loyal to the us of the past.

I never once lost faith nor confidence in us.
But u choose to go. Keeping true to my remainding days. I wait.
Those times.





USS halloween..
We enjoyed it together before and now it is just a moment for u and your companion.

U are happier. Though i believe we could be much more happier than now if we fought on..
My absence could be your catalyst for joy. Stay happy stay cheerful. Stay loved. I am always here if u ever need someone but i guess u will never come looking for me anymore..

Upholding our past promises till its times up for me to go.

Miss holding those hands.

But the smile will still be kept on, your life now shouldnt be seeing anymore of my sad face. Guilty not. It was still a decision u made for us with us taken into account.

A text from u could just mean so much now. What a quiet night after a long long busy day.
wouldnt be a problem in the past with your encouragements and smile.


Once again it was a dream of us and the feeling i felt was totally out of this world it was something we enjoyed before the melt down and i can really feel the joy we both shared at that point of time.


能让对方很开心的话 自己也一定很快乐 

你现在快乐吗? 开心吗? 
Is there really a guy in your life now? 
I only need an answer for that. 




A music video that fits how i am actually feeling.



一整天 那麼累了 我還跑了 九十分鐘
這劇情 那麼沉重 我卻看到 差一點笑了
家就在 下個路口 我怎麼了 還會走錯
聖誕節 過了多久 我還在過 情人節快樂

照理來說那時候 沒有誰我都能一個人生活
為甚麼在妳走後 我卻變得 不像我

只不過聽到歌 眼就要紅 這不是我 一定不是我
一想到妳 心就要痛 這不是我 我沒那麼弱
愛過應該變得成熟 和平的分手應該是種收穫
緊握回憶要做甚麼 這樣不能失去誰的人
不是我 喔 不是我

天空海闊的盡頭 如果我終於能走過那斜坡
像朋友那樣吻我 就算我已 不是我

只不過聽到歌 眼就要紅 這不是我 一定不是我
一想到妳 心就要痛 這不是我 我沒那麼弱
愛過應該變得成熟 和平的分手應該是種收穫
緊握回憶要做甚麼 這樣不能失去誰的人
不是我

只不過睡不著 淚就失控 這不是我 一定不是我
一想到妳 人就要瘋 這不是我 我沒那麼弱
原本我要豁達寬容 學到的智慧結果都沒有用
賠上自由也不掙脫 這樣不懂愛自己的人
不是我 喔

妳最深愛的人 已不是我
妳不捨得的人 已不是我
妳最深愛的人 已不是我
妳不捨得的人 已不是我



Phone chats - those conversations that we are missing. Are you? 


Stay happy
Stay safe
Be the girl you once were. That is the most i could say.

During work today i was really at breaking point due to the lag of sleep in addition to the long hours..
I remember the time you would be on your phone texting if i am done, that you are going to bed soon, most importantly how much you miss me. Those were the messages that kept me going as that is your way of supporting me through. But now i would only wonder if you are missing me at all?

The hug, the patting me to sleep, the kiss to the forehead, the warmth from you.
I really do miss them all.

Our future. The one we say we will work hard together no matter what.
Alone i am waiting. Having a little leap of faith.





I told myself to give myself a little bit more time, until i am enlist, to give up totally.
But i guess that isnt a choice for me to make now is it?
From the look of it, it seem like there is indeed a guy you are looking forward to and his presence can make you happy just like i could in the past.

It hurts.

These past few months i tried to distant myself, i tried to show you i am ok.
I do not wish you to be guilty or whatsoever, but deep down inside me i am breaking apart.
I couldnt accept anyone who tried to come into my life.

At the same time i know i shouldnt let anyone who cares about me to worry.
Fortunate enough to have this blog to voice out.. sigh.

Are you happier? Can he really treat you as well as i did? Is Jocklaus really impossible?

Halloween is here, to think we celebrated it for the past two years. I miss your hug.
Really do..

My heart have not change.
I am smiling now because i know you will be better seeing me smile.
Till then i still wanna wait.